Imagination - Preview of Life's Coming Attractions!
Sitting isolated in the back of the inmate medical care unit, back pressed up against the cooling cinder block, my body aches with cheeks burning through flushes of fever. My breath quivers between the spell of violent shaking. I wasn’t certain if the unsettling chill that was running down my spine was due to the fever or from the tiny glimpses of thrilling freedom that lay outside the prison’s walls.
My delirious mind imagines the wind of icy fingers running through my hair as I watch the flag become a cape in the strengthening wind. The freedom of the American flag clothed me with hope while my parched throat swallowed what’s possible if I keep leaning in and looking up.
“Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions.”
There was a time when there was no hope for me, but somehow I encountered God who lit a fire deep within me. This flame was so glorious, it blinded the darkness lurking in my heart. But here I sit; I was set free. What once was so dark turned into an everlasting blaze of radiant light.
My mind bolts back to the kind and empowering words shared with me, "God must truly love you, and I mean A LOT!!! Our Lord doesn't allow someone to go through these kind of adversities that you've experienced unless He has one special and unique calling on your life."
The sting of the tease of what life feels like through the blowing breeze of freedom that would some day be possible lingers. The illusion of what is possible wars with the recognition of what freedom actually looks like when you’re shackled and imprisoned doing time for your crime.
Power of Purpose
The power of purpose helps keep the focus looking upward from the love and support of a community who refuses to throw away the keys of second and third chances.
I am more than my mistakes!
Acquiring the gift of insight into our own lives and purpose showcases how God is able to do abundantly more than all we could EVER ask or imagine!
Would you run and hide from the exposure of your own character flaws or would you be willing to develop a plan to make your dreams come true and be all who God created and designed you to be?
Now, realizing that in order to become a great leader, you had to learn and earn an advanced degree at the University of Adversity, your faith ushers evidence to, I can do all things through Him who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13).
Finding a place in society is overwhelming. The first few weeks after release are the most stressful and demeaning as you try and fit in making what others might consider “normal decisions,” but when living institutionalized with minimal choices, it's easier to make good decisions when they're already made for you. Yes, even though you're surrounded by criminal conduct.
It breaks my heart and messes with my head that you fear me. I get it!
But I imagine a community filled with patience, guidance and support. I don't want to fail, trust me! Prison is hell. Some of us want to change. Imagining the extension of grace with compassion to fail along with the opportunity to get back up and start again is courage to succeed.
I imagine a Body helping me experience my plan and purpose from prison to community.
I've completed time in prison for my crime. I imagine my community supporting punishment's end.
But that decision is yours to make.
The laws of discrimination are permanently seared into my life, so...
I just hope and pray you contain the diagnosis of criminality to loom inside the prison walls and not foreshadow my daunting prognosis.
I can only imagine what it will feel like when my community finds it in their hearts to allow me the opportunity to start over without the looming shadow of defeat and judgment. That was my companion in prison, but now I'm free and looking forward to experiencing what freedom looks like.
Until next time...